♣ Saturday, October 28, 2006
yeaterdae nite was an deadful nite..
ii cried till ii fall aslp.. T.T
ii sms him.. he was lyk juz reply mii in a verii moody way..
ii called him.. we chatted.. not much wordz we hav said..
it was de most queitest nite ii hav been chattin wif him..
ii knew sumting was goin wrong.. frm de ques he asked mii..
n ans mii.. derez onlii one reason.! SUMTING WAS GOIN WRONG..
in our convo derez nthin we could sae n he said tat he wanted to slp.. den we hang up.!
de way he msg.. sumting was realli goin wrong..
todae.. ii woke up verii early..
every mornin he woke up.. he would sms mii..
but todae was diff..
n.. ii knew everyting..
ii went to meet mei ting ard 12+..
n went into her bed n started cryin..
ii cried till lee may wanted to meet mei ting at whitesand..
den we went to whitesand..
aft tat mei yun went to meet mii at popular..
aft ii saw her.. ii juz cant open mi mouth n tok..
II JUZ CANT!
ii hav nthin much more to sae to her..
aft tat mii n lee may went back to mei ting hse..
wen we reach her hse..
he sms mii..
ii knew de reason y he would want to sms mii..
but ii juz dun wanna sae..
but aft tat ii cant take it anymore..
n ii told him tat ii knew sumting..
ii juz dun wanna review it.. T.T
he ask wad do ii tink she told him.?
den ii reply back wad do he tink ii tink tat wad she told?!
he shld noe more exactly den mii..
but he lied to to mii..
den we stop smsin.. T.T
it make mi dae bad..
aft tat we went to Yue Ming hse..
ii went into her room..
ii read all de msg he sent mii..
frm de first msg he sent mii.. till de last..
it started to change frm yst nite..
it is verii obvious..
ii started to cry again..
n tis tym was de worst.. T.T
II CAN'T STOP CRYIN.. T.T
till Fiona went n in.. n de rest too..
Felly jie.. Yue Ming meii.. mei ting..
dey all went in.. dey cheer mii up..
but itz juz no use..
aft awhile ii stop..
we went into de kitchen..
n dey gave mii eat de cookies dey bake demself..
aft awhile.. ii read de msges again..
den ii started to drop tears.. as ii tried to manage to keep it..
den II CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.!
n ii sms him n gave him de ans he wanted to noe..
ii dunno if he understand anot..
yst nite he told mii..
he knew de ans juz wantin to confirm..
tatz juz bcoz ii told him ii lyk another guy more den him laz tym..
n sumone told him sumting..
cant he feel tat derez changes in de msges tis few daes ii sent him.?!
mayb he realli dun.. T.T
if he realli dun understand wad ii realli feel..
den ii hav nthin much more to sae..
mayb frm de startin till now itz juz a drm..
mayb im juz livin in a drm..
mayb it dun exist in de real world..
frm tonite onwardz.. ii hav nthin much more to sae already..
aft tonite..
all mi memorises will b washed away..
forget everyting..
everyting he said..
n de place we went..
he sae to giv him afew hrs n he will reply mii tonite..
aft tonite.. ii will noe if im livin in de real world..
or throughout all de while im juz livin in a drm..
an unbelieveable drm.. T.T
xiiaoling ~ yst nite n todae.. T.T
♥lovingyouFAITHFULLY at 12:00 PM
